I want to believe…

There I go. Stealing lines from The X Files. I would change one part of that statement, though. Instead of “I want to believe” I would say “I want to know”. There is a difference between believing and knowing, and knowing holds far more weight with me. If you can show me proof, evidence, and logic behind a claim, I will be much more likely to accept it as true.

Originally this post was going to be about Urban Exploration, but I started watching one of those “A Haunting” shows on the Discovery Channel and my enthusiasm shifted elsewhere. So now I’m going to talk to you about ghoulies and ghosties and long legged beasties! Sounds like fun to me!

I love creepy stuff. I think I made this clear in the previous post, but if not, I will reiterate; I love the spooky, the dark, the scary, and the disturbing. Being creeped out is a feeling I actively pursue, and if there is a possibility of running into a ghost/monster while in pursuit, I’m TOTALLY there. I was always the first to enter the creepy old trailer in the thicket by my old house in AZ, shivering in anticipation of having the pants scared off of me. Did that ever happen? Not really, but the anticipation was part of the fun! My favorite place in that boiling, god-forsaken town was the old building of the high school that was no longer used due to a lack of fire exits. I was constantly dragging my friends to the town cemetery at sundown to do grave rubbings and see if we could creep each other out. Creepiness was my FUN.

What made me this way? You might be asking yourself this question, scratching your head and wondering what on earth makes a girl this crazy. I’ll tell you.

 A steady childhood diet of Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark and Are You Afraid of the Dark?. I will post a link to the show and the website for the book at the end of this post.

So yeah. Those, along with a myriad of other things that I will probably think of later, are what made me into the weird person I am today.  But, as a weird person, I am often conflicted. My dad, who introduced me into the creepiness I have come to love, also instilled in me the idea that reason and logic are and always will be superior to “feelings”. He was a cop for 13 years, and I learned this lesson well. So, whenever I hear a ghost “encounter” from someone, or I read about an experience, this little niggling doubt surfaces. It says “This person could be lying. Or confused.” Then I end up chalking the account up as another story that may or may not be true, and I lose most of my enthusiasm.

I hate thinking this way, but I cant help it.

So, like Fox Mulder in “The X Files” I find myself “wanting to believe.” I’m just harder to convince than he is.

All of my love for creepiness isn’t enough to make a blind believer out of me. I place a lot more credit on my own experiences, which are sadly lacking at this point. 

San Diego certainly isn’t conducive to ghost hunting or feeling creeped out, at least, not the San Diego I’ve seen. All of the cemeteries are far away from where I live, legitimately haunted houses in the area are either inaccessible or freaking expensive, and I know for a fact that most of the “ghost hunters” in the area are woefully inaccurate in their histories and ghost encounters. It seems that I am destined to live in a place where it never rains and the creepiest thing you see regularly is the crazy man sitting at the corner licking his lips and talking to himself.

Yeah. I live THERE.

Okay, this post is beginning to sound like a bitch-fest about my area, so I will leave you with some URL’s to creepy places on the web.

Are you Afraid of the Dark? (Episode, YouTube)-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=75FA0QpxFFg

Scary Stories to tell in the Dark (Amazon)-http://www.amazon.com/Scary-Stories-Tell-Dark-Anniversary/dp/0064401707

The Moonlit Road (Scary Stories, free!)-http://www.themoonlitroad.com/

Is your house haunted?-http://paranormal.about.com/od/ghosthuntinggeninfo/a/aa060704.htm

There you have it! When I figure out how to make links, I will certainly clean this up. As for now, well, if you’re up to it, you can cut and paste. If any of them don’t work, feel free to slap me upside the head about it.

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